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Last night I was kind of struggling. I was wanting more of God, and was becoming a little frustrated. I want to be overwhelmed in His presence, to be intimate with Him. I only want more of Him. I even began to be jealous of others’ relationships with God. But as I sat there on the computer, a new friend of mine instant messaged me on facebook. He was going through something similar, and asked if I would pray for/with Him. I was stoked at the opportunity to pray, as it’s like my favorite thing to do, and then God began to show me something. I was, we were, seeking after someone else’s revelation and relationship. God showed us that we need to have our own, and allow Him to reveal Himself to us as He wants to, not as I dictate to Him. This is not a new revelation for me, just one that I had lost sight of. It is so important that we go to the Father without preconceptions, or rather restrictions, of how we think God should act and make us feel.

We can know that in Him is love and peace and joy and power and all kinds of things, and we can and should ask for all of these, but I don’t want to go to Him seeking only a part. When all I have is a part, small piece, or worst, seeking after someone else’s small piece, I can end up totally missing Him. I wanted it this way, but because it didn’t happen like that, I feel that God isn’t with me, or worse, I feel like God loves someone else more than me. I don’t have to have your experience to know that I have a real, personal, awesome relationship with YAH. I most definitely want more of Him, and to see Him in His fullness, but I refuse to limit Him in how He wants to show Himself.

It’s all about Him, not me. I want to be so lost in Him, so wrapped up and consumed with/by Him, that I don’t even recognize myself apart from Him. I want to see myself through His eyes looking backward, rather than my eyes looking forward (if you can understand). It’s a little hard to explain the picture, but I pray that God would reveal Himself to you and who you are in Him, how He sees you. Live there, find your identity there. Let’s stop limiting God, limiting ourselves, causing separation from Him. Come to Him as you are and be transformed as you enter His presence. Wow! That’s awesome! I’ll say it again, come to Him as you are and be transformed as you enter His presence. I don’t have to achieve or earn His love; I can’t. He loves me more than I can fathom, infinitely. We cannot even put words to the deepest revelations through relationship with Him. We can’t put words on the feeling of His presence. So, why would we limit God by seeking Him through someone else’s attempt to describe some small part of the expression of His love for them, and what it felt like to be there. Get your own experience, not like theirs, not like mine, but your very own. Seek Him without boundaries, without walls, as He is, as He would reveal Himself to you. Praise the name above every name that can be named, YAHushua ha ‘Mashiach, the King of kings and Lord of lords, the Son of the Living God. HalleluYAH!!!